Yesterday was great, but aweful all at the same time! I over-slepped, and woke up at 8:30. By the time I got to school I had already missed all my morning classes. In the afternoon we had rehearsal for Berkshire Choir. I really enjoyed it, except the fact that I wasn't feeling well and couldn't sing the greatest. Still, it was so much fun! I couldn't believe who I ran in to on my way in..Carolyn from Laurel Camp! I haven't seen her since June. We gave eachother a hug and started to catch up, but were cut short to start rehearsal. By the time I got home it was 6:30. As soon as we got in, we ate, and then left again! My parents went to see Uncle Paul and dropped me off at Shawn's appartment on the way. I was able to spend a little time visiting with my beautiful little niece, but it wasn't long enough. She is on the verge of talking now, and can understand almost everything you say to her. If you ask for a hug, she gives you a huge squeeze around the neck, and will give you a little kiss. She is the cutest!
When I got home, it was almost 11. I had to stay up and finish my health powerpoint project, which took me a couple hours. I didn't get to bed until 1, and then woke at 5 because I was worried I was going to sleep in again.
Today wasn't too bad, actually. Most of the morning was nice. I had to take a test in Pre-Calculus, but that wasn't too difficult. I got my Latin test back, and got an 87, not bad! Rehearsal for band was really nice. We played all three pieces, and they are starting to sound really great. I think we are going to do well at our competition.
I just got done putting Napolean (my fish) in his new bowl. It's a lot bigger than the old one, and I was able to decorate it nicely. Now I have to clean the rabbit cage, my room, and do some dishes. Not too much homework tonight, which is good. Hopefully I can get to bed early tonight and get a good night's sleep.

"I'll never love again
Can I say that to you
Will you run away
If I try to be true
Cherry blossom girl "
~Air "Cherry Blossom Girl"

I am indredibly tired today, but I realized that it has been very long since my last post. Since the last one there have been quite a few happenings.
Our American Studies 2 class went to Ellis Island last Thursday, stopping at WTC Ground Zero and at Madame Tousauds Wax Mueseum (which was AMAZING!!). On the way back I sat in the back with Brian all the way home. We had a great conversation. We were later joined by the rest of the bus and it turned in to another game of Never Have I Ever...but somehow ended with me asking if Brian will go to Homecoming with me. He still hasn't given me an answer. I guess Colleen is going to talk to him about it. I'm not sure anymore about him. I would love to go out with him, but I don't know how far our relationship would go. I know that it couldn't last forever, but yet I have some hope.I just don't know, really.
Over the weekend I spent all of Saturday working...both babysitting and on school work. Sunday, Shawn and I went to the Waterbury and the Meriden Malls, and had a great time. Shawn and I haven't spent much time together since he got married and had Bethany, so it was nice to just be him and I. I bought a small pink pin that says "Take me to Paris" and has the Eiffel Tower on it (so true for me) and a keychain with a pirate that says "I'd like to get my hands on your booty." I just got that because of the band playing Pirates music.
Today was hell. I had 2 projects due, an in-class essay/test to write, a pop-quiz in Music Theory, and a Latin test! I didn't get very much homework tonight, but I still didn't finish it. I did my Music Theory work but I'm saving my math until tomorrow's study hall.
The work load this year is almost unbearable, and I still am not in the classes of my other class-mates. I find myself just tired all the time, and I do not know how to wake up! Today I found out that the MRI on my knee showed up nothing, which makes absolutely no sense to me. They want me to do physical therapy, but I don't have the time for that! Nor do I want to. I already told him I didn't want P.T, it does nothing for me but waste my time. I really can't understand what's going on. I will have to see a real doctor who is willing to see me, not a physician's assistant who works out of an office who tried to send me away.
I will only say one more thing before I go;
   "LET'S GO YANKEES!!!!!!!!!!"

I am indredibly tired today, but I realized that it has been very long since my last post. Since the last one there have been quite a few happenings.
Our American Studies 2 class went to Ellis Island last Thursday, stopping at WTC Ground Zero and at Madame Tousauds Wax Mueseum (which was AMAZING!!). On the way back I sat in the back with Brian all the way home. We had a great conversation. We were later joined by the rest of the bus and it turned in to another game of Never Have I Ever...but somehow ended with me asking if Brian will go to Homecoming with me. He still hasn't given me an answer. I guess Colleen is going to talk to him about it. I'm not sure anymore about him. I would love to go out with him, but I don't know how far our relationship would go. I know that it couldn't last forever, but yet I have some hope.I just don't know, really.
Over the weekend I spent all of Saturday working...both babysitting and on school work. Sunday, Shawn and I went to the Waterbury and the Meriden Malls, and had a great time. Shawn and I haven't spent much time together since he got married and had Bethany, so it was nice to just be him and I. I bought a small pink pin that says "Take me to Paris" and has the Eiffel Tower on it (so true for me) and a keychain with a pirate that says "I'd like to get my hands on your booty." I just got that because of the band playing Pirates music.
Today was hell. I had 2 projects due, an in-class essay/test to write, a pop-quiz in Music Theory, and a Latin test! I didn't get very much homework tonight, but I still didn't finish it. I did my Music Theory work but I'm saving my math until tomorrow's study hall.
The work load this year is almost unbearable, and I still am not in the classes of my other class-mates. I find myself just tired all the time, and I do not know how to wake up! Today I found out that the MRI on my knee showed up nothing, which makes absolutely no sense to me. They want me to do physical therapy, but I don't have the time for that! Nor do I want to. I already told him I didn't want P.T, it does nothing for me but waste my time. I really can't understand what's going on. I will have to see a real doctor who is willing to see me, not a physician's assistant who works out of an office who tried to send me away.
I will only say one more thing before I go;
   "LET'S GO YANKEES!!!!!!!!!!"

I am way too tired to write anything today. I actually stayed up and did all my homework. I'll write all about today tomorrow. Now, bed!
Barone:(looking through notes for today) "Where are we...?"
Anna:"You are here. Do you need a map?"

The movie "Nightmare on Elm Street" was on tonight, from 11:45-1:30. Johnny is in it, so of course I watched it! Now, I can not get to sleep. Now I sit here writing this entry, wondering which class I will sleep through tomorrow.
I practiced my flute for my audition tomorrow (well, today technically). I am so upset. My tone sucks so bad, and I know I'm going to bomb. How can I get in to a college for music if I can't even make it in to Wind Ensemble? Wind Ensemble! It's not even an out of school band, its the band in school which freshman can make it in to if there's an open spot! Tanya made it the last 2 years, and I am really upset over the probability of not making it again. I want to cry now, because I feel like my entire future, the future, life and career that I always thought I would have, is going down the shitter!
My friends have been great lately. Kurt got a part in the Senior play, I am so happy for him! He's coming here Thursday afternoon until we go to get our uniform night.
I talk with Alain some lately. He seems really upset, and that upsets me. I kind of wish that he would talk to me about what troubles him, but I know that he may not be comfortable with it, so I don't push the matter. I wonder, too, if we will ever make a bridge over the ocean we live accross. I know I dream of France, and he dreams of America, but who will make their dream their reality? Dreams have a funny way about them....

Sometimes dreams have a strange way about them. When I was younger, I had a reoccuring dream about a man who I always thought to be the love of my life. I could describe everything about him, and could feel every embrance, taste every kiss. I could see our surroundings in great detail, though I'd never known them in my life. I always expected that dream of coming true. Now, I am not sure. I have recently thought about another possibility. Maybe I have channeled in to another's dream. Could it be possible that somewhere out in the world, someone else had that dream of me? Could it be him that believes it to be real? Could he be the one searching, wondering where I am? Only time will tell where my dreams lead, but I pray they lead somewhere...

Yesterday was really geat. School itself was nothing particularly special, but the afternoon and night was great! After school we had a Drama club meeting. We discussed this years play, the senior play, the new lighting and all the normal things. After the meeting, Brian and I hung around the band room for a while. I really can't believe how much he makes me laugh; he's so great!
When I got home, Lindsey called, and she sounded a little upset. I felt bad that I had to go, so I asked my parents if she could come to the mall with us, and they actually said "yes!" We ate at Home Town Buffet and went shopping. We had the best time together. I got a few pairs of pants and a great shirt. She brought $20 and was able to get a shirt and a pin. I had so much fun. Hopefully we can do that again.
As for today...there really is nothing to say. I've been going crazy all day trying to trace back my family history. I think I may have traced it back to my great-great-great grandmother who came over from Paris. Wow, Paris. That is really cool, not only am I from France, but Paris! Hopefully I can go there some day. Until then, maybe I can have a little bit of France come to me (there's really only one person who might know what that means, and I hope he reads it).

Ok, so maybe it wasn't from Hell, but a little bit of pergatory. I met some of the kids up at the campground. There's Jessica, 16, Joe, 16, Justina, 14, Kyle, 14, and some other's who are young. I basically didn't have the greatest of times, but it wasn't too bad. I did meet a guy that looked JUST like Marlon Brando; I wish I had a camera! And, I got a kiss from him. But, it didn't mean anything, that's what you had to do during Spaghetto, you had to kiss everyone who served. I think I didn't have as good a time as I could have because I didn't allow myself to open up and have a little fun. However, I am convinced that the teens there aren't allowed to have any fun whatsoever. They're talking about making a clubhouse for the kids/teens next year, but they want parental supervision at all times, and everything has to be scheduled. Its kind of ridiculous. At the old campground we had a clubhouse and we all just hung out there whenever, except sometimes at night we'd go to someones trailor or the old bus in the woods (still don't know how a bus got out in to the middle of the woods). I miss my old friends. They were the best. I wish we didn't have to leave there, but shit happens. Everything happens for a reason, I just wish there was a little more happenin.
Tomarrow's the first drama meeting. They're working on the Senior Play first, which means we won't be doing the Spring Play for a while. That bums me out. I really want to get working on theatre. Jazz Band auditions are soon, too. I don't think I'll need to audition again for that. We also have the women's choir audition's soon. Wow, lots of auditions coming up. Not to mention Regionals, if I do it, and Wind Ensemble. I think I might beat Tanya out this year. She'd be so pissed, and I'd just love it! Ok, so I would feel bad that she's not in it, but still...
Ok, I heard this really great quote today from Doniger (he always has some wacky quotes at hand) by Rosencrantz and Guildenstern. That is currently my away message for AIM. I found another one that is really great, which is today's closer.

So I've had 2 full days of school. It's not too bad. I do have some schedule issues, and I don't know how I'm going to figure them out next year, but I'm sure it will work out alright.
This weekend we're going away camping. I don't really want to go, but I have to. There's not too much to say, really. I found this really cool site last night that broadcasts a live radio from Paris, France. The funny part is the announcers are French, but the music is mostly American! I love it! Every once in a while they play a French song. Check it out. www.Frequence3.org.
"il faut se donner les moyens de ses ambitions" ~Alain Crozier

Kurt and Anna came over yesterday. We had a blast. I showed them around the place, we watched Blue Collar Comedy Tour, made cookies, and just hung out in general. I really hope they enjoyed themselves, too. I think they did.
Tomorrow is the first day of school, and I am dreading it! I spent today trying to enjoy my last day of freedom. Dad gave me my first driving lesson! I drove up and down the driveway a few times, and just got a feel for how the car works. I can't wait to actually get on the road, but I am still a little nervous.
There's only 2 hours left and then it will be tomorrow. I hate the "school slump." I do enjoy the activities; drama, band, choir, but there's just a monotony of school that drives me nuts.